f---

im supposed to be somewhat happy given the recent turn of events. but i'm not.
in fact, im getting more emo. i don't even know if im on the right track cos my heart tells me otherwise. i'm sorry if im gonna hurt you one day. i really have no guarantees if there'd be any future and i doubt so.
and it doesnt help tt memories of the past are haunting me incessantly. it's just so hard to let go sometimes. i thought i'd succeeded but it was not to be.





its ironic tt even with your company, i feel lonelier than before.
its so hard to be honest, especially with oneself.